So it's pretty crazy but I only have 4 weeks left until my due date! I know that everyone keeps telling me that it's not uncommon to go past your due date with your first baby but I do not want to think about that. I have October 24th engraved in my brain so if I go past that date, I'm pretty sure I'll go crazy. Overall, it's felt like this pregnancy has gone by pretty fast but now that I'm getting closer and closer, it's starting to go a little slower. But I am kind of getting to the freak out stage of pregnancy. I don't know if we have everything we need and it's just weird to think that a baby, that I'm 100% responsible for, is going to be here soon! I will never not be a mom again. It's so weird to think about.
I had a baby shower last Saturday that my visiting teachers put on for me. It was women from the ward and neighborhood so it was so fun and there were so many people that were so generous! It was such a busy Saturday for our ward and there were so many women that couldn't make it but they made the effort and dropped off a gift before the shower even started. It was so nice of everyone and I had a great time. Unfortunately I didn't get any pictures but I got some great stuff. Cute clothes, a quilt, our baby monitors, books, etc. It was so fun. I have my family shower this Saturday and I can't wait! It's going to be my family and Zach's side of the family so it's going to be a party! Even my sister Angie is flying in from Colorado with her little girl to come to it. I can't wait.
Besides all the shower fun, I've been having a little bit of a rough time. Last week I hurt my back, somehow. I had a bad back even before I got pregnant so I think with the weight gain, the baby pulling all my weight to the front, and all my joints loosening it's taking a toll on my back. So I did something to it, I don't know what, but every time I try and put weight on my left leg my back kind of pops and gives out on me. I went to the doctor on Monday and he prescribed a muscle relaxer to try and get it to calm down and he said if those don't help, then it could be something else that we can't really take care of until the baby gets here because I'm so far along. AKA Deal with it until you deliver. So I've taken a couple days off from work to try and get it to calm down and I've taken the pills but they don't even touch it so I stopped. It makes me think that it's not muscular, it's a joint or a nerve problem. I've come to the conclusion that it's probably something I have to deal with until I get her here. Now I'm in the dilemma of what to do about work. I don't want to take the next 4 weeks off because my back hurts, but I don't know how productive I'll be at work if I can't demonstrate the exercises or walk very well. I've been walking around with a cane and I talked to my boss yesterday about what he thinks I should do and seeing if there's any clerical work I could do that wouldn't involve my back much. We're trying to come up a decision that works for everyone so I just pray that I'll be able to get back to work somehow... Until then, hopefully my back will get better, or I'll be able to tolerate it. Better yet, let's just have her come 2 weeks early and then I won't have to worry about it anymore! I know, probably unlikely but a girl can dream.